I am thinking of you all the time.
Day and night i find you close to the stopped, running, skipping heart.
Flow of blood halts with each good moment i remember with you, and then it rushes hot and anew giving new vigor to me.
Your smiling face, pearl white teeth long slim cute nose petal like rose red lips, broad forehead, those shiny darkest brown round lovely deep drowning eyes,dark silken hair, long ears, a laughing dimple on your sweet glowing pink face and cheeks.
All and everything gives me just everything i had ever wanted.
I dont know what we can get from each other but i know i am happiest when i am with you.
You are the most understanding girl i have ever met.
You help me to stand next to perfect.
Only if we can spark off.
You are comfortable with me, i hope i had been trustworthy enough for you for night movie.
Your company brings a mature person in me.
You complete me in ways i can never count.
Those numerous things mean me my life, you are entitled to exercise full control over every thing i own.
I gifted you my time willingly my life so that i can be with you forever, you will be happy.
No sorry , thanks or please comes in between us.
Some promises are left for you to be fulfilled by me, cause they are not hard but impossible for me to forget.
Whatever your happiness be i will try to fulfill it.
I see you in front of me as if you are there with me near me.
Before sleeping you are my last thought, after waking up you are my first thought.
I see a face, smiling face in my dream that ran away but now that face still smiles, feels free to be with me.
We go out, picnic, park enjoy and that face smiles with me for me,simple jokes, my silliness. little acts of gratitude.
I saw a sad face back one day, wanted that to be happy, smile and smile forever.
And i tried, my effort went wrong and i did wrong i think.
And by the time that smile smile came that trust i got i was yours.
I took steps not to retreat but to walk with you in your every low thins and blues of life.
Do you think i wanted to say to you.?
No.
i Didn't.
I knew that you already know it, you will acknowledge it.
But we both continued and my truth is what i can show so you know everything i am.
Don't think from head when heart beats.
Everything's fine when you are around.
You can take care of yourself, but i am tensed , very very tensed.
It kills me daily, you crying, having headaches, not eating,etc, it haunts me.
You will say not to think of you, as usual.
What should i do.?
Tell me.
Something And i will do whatever you will say. May be thats best for both of us.
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I can never make you feel guilty for your decisions cause its your life and i respect you.
I am never confident enough to stare you below neck.
i never met your eyes buddy., they make me drown.
I am not a flirt, will never hurt you emotionally.
And thats why i am not allowed to say certain feelings.
I can not see you hurt.
Yes, i am a emotional guy, you can forget may be may be not. None that you are mine, i will Always be yours.
An elderly lady told me to take care of her Gudiya and her Bacchi, which propels me to sense of responsibility. I am ready to take that responsibility.
A 5 minutes meet thrills me, worth worth worth hours days and weeks of wait.
You told me once thats the difference between me and some guy, he stops some girl doing this and that.
I will tell you difference between me and him.
I am NOT your boyfriend like the guy and girl.
I can not leave you at bus stop to go to hostel.
I am not leaving your hand if you are cold.
I am not sleeping in peace to know you have headache.
Its never cold out there after 13th October.
I am not staring at other girls.
I am listening to others call you "Bomb Shell" cause i mean nothing, no thing, Absolutely nothing to you.
I am not selfish enough to stop you do anything you want.
I am not a restriction on you, you are a free bird a cosmic delight, its your life and you are free to roam areas you like to.
i am not even as rich as him to have some body to love to.
So, i am the poorest wretched thing you will ever meet.
i will stay with you forever by your side as long as i live.
Some guys here say girl are "sluts", whores and prostitutes, all girls, just use and throw.
I hate them.
I can not respect every girl, and not every one is worth it.
Some say i love this girl but she does not know, etc etc, they are simple guys, i see them dying.
What about you.?
I will not lie, never had and never will. You are not everything to me, but you mean very much in my life.
I have priorities for you, responsibilities to you.
Can not live without you, etc etc, sab bakwas.
Rehna Padega.
"Khud hi" healthy ni hounga to tera khyal kaun rakhega.?
But i can never ever again think of someone else like i do for you.
You can be true to yourself once and next time you only fool and bluff yourself.
Your most important and truest time was first time you gathered that courage to say it to someone.
some people are very lucky very very lucky, very prosperous to hear it again and agian, but some people are very very bad lucked, doomed to say it once and that too to be refused forever.
I can only care for you forever.
